I don’t know why I even bother. Every day, I wake up groggy and terrible, having to endure 30 minutes of evading asshole drivers, to get to a workplace that is basically a single apartment room. I constantly miss calls and cant even get one single piece of work right. Either that, or I forget one item while I get to handle every paper and work document I sign up for, because we don’t have some sort of organized files to categorize all the work needed to do. But the bit that sticks with me is that, every time we have a meeting, the topic always reflects some sort of error I do or a thing I forget to do. We have 4 other coworkers working in the same place, yet I feel like I’m the only one put on show. And yet, for all these misgivings and tribulations, I still think I deserve all of it. Like I was punished for being born or at least for being so bloody incompetent. But I don’t know how much I can take it, and it’s not like its the worst job I know of. I’m just so tired of seeing my mistakes be the talk of today’s work day every single time, even if it’s meant to “educate” me.
