I have been working on this audit for over four months and it just was sent in for review yesterday. Then the lead auditor said that I did not have to review about 70% of it!! I could have been done 3 months ago!! Then he yells at me and says I will be passed down for a promotion because I can’t get things done on time!! I hate this job!!! I am damned if I do the review and damned if I don’t do enough of a review…
Actually, I have two bosses: the lead auditor and the manager. So when I screw up, I hear about it twice. Then they have differing opinions– so no matter what my opinion is, I never win, because they both disagree all the time– meaning more rework for me. This company sucks!! I want to leave but the economy is in the shitter!!
I just feel like I am wasting my time at this place– like I’m comfortably numb being miserable at this job just because its the safe thing to do– I have been here for four years– each getting more miserable than the last. But then I keep thinking, well, I could quit but I have a car payment, $20 grand in school loans, and I like the place I live. So that seems to be what is motivating me to stay. How in the world do I get out of this!! I just want some freedom to do what I love doing…I don’t mind working hard, but when I have to deal with this crap day after day, I just can’t take it anymore– I don’t want to end up some stupid corporate yuppy that the corporation will dispose of at whatever time they want…get me out of this place!!! Maybe I just need to get laid…